Every once in a while, in the midst of the mundane, the Lord speaks so vividly it feels as though you have opened a door to a rushing wind that hits you and knocks you on your feet. The memory of it lasts through a lifetime as you search for the significance and meaning to the encounter.
When I first got married, I remember vividly being given a verse from the Lord in Hebrews. This verse is smacked at the end of the thirteenth chapter in the midst of a farewell from the author. It had been easily glanced over by me in the past because, well, the book was over. And yet, the verse struck me to the soul this particular time. The writer of Hebrews is admonishing the readers to "go beyond the city gate" as Christ did for His beloved sheep. He went beyond His comfort zone. And then the verse "For here we do not have an enduring city, but we are looking for the city that is to come" that acted as a pivotal shift for me comes next.
When I read that verse, the foundation of that idea made sense to me; "Sure, I will seek God's Kingdom. This world isn't home." But I believe that in that moment God was conveying to me that He would in fact be teaching me that concept first hand. That verse would in fact become the definition of my married life.
Growing up, I always lived in the same place. No movement, no change. My childhood was defined by steadiness. I defined myself by where I came from. Everything I was existed in the parameters of that half acre lot. And that was a huge blessing, but also a burden.
I had to be taught by the Lord that in His kingdom is all that there should be of me. I would have to be pulled like Velcro from every thing of this world I attached myself to. It would be a painful removal, but a sweet lesson.
Since that point, my family and I have moved 12 times. We have gotten very good at it in fact. Yet even now the difficulty in learning this lesson escapes me. I struggle against change and discomfort. I want peace, tranquility, stability in this world. I want to be rooted in one spot and never leave. My soul craves that consistency.
And one day I will have it. But not on this side of heaven.
The day will come when roots will dig deep in the consistency and reliability of Christ. No worry or pain or change will ever take us away from His presence.
Until that glorious day, Our kind Father will continue to teach me this difficult lesson. I will continue to be lead beyond the city gate into the unfamiliar. Every time I adhere myself to a place on this earth, He tenderly leads me away, keeping my eyes fixed on Heaven and the everlasting promise of being in His presence. I am a child on my Father's shoulders, being guided to the place where I belong, the everlasting city that is to come.